if i can do magic

my daughter’s fascination these days is in magic. she got a book on tricks that she would try on me with matching abracadabra command.

pretty much she has taken a crack on most of the cool tricks in that book, so as she runs out of "magic", my 7-yr old asks me what i wish to have in this world, and she’ll attempt to work magic to get it for me. i could only smile and sigh, for i know that no magic is possible to achieve what i desire.

it must be fun though to see it coming..

you can do magic
you can have anything that you desire.
magic..
and you know you're the one who can put out the fire.

you know darn well
when you cast your spell
you will get your way;
when you hypnotize with your eyes
a heart of stone can turn to clay.
doo, doo, doo ...

how good can it be if only we can actually do magic and get things our way, eh?

if i can do magic, i would have made myself the healthiest person growing up, not knowing any form of pain and sorrow physically and emotionally. i would have felt just bliss and grandeur every moment in my life.
if i can do magic, i would have seen myself become a lawyer as my parents had planned. i would have stopped craving for continued education with the thought that i have enough intelligence to understand anything.
if i can do magic, i would have already traveled in all continents. i would have been done exploring the wonders of the world, not only in books, also in actuality, even in luxury.
if i can do magic, i would have at least 2 kids, a twin maybe, so it’s double the pride i have right now. i would have spent every minute delighted with mommy duties times 2.
if i can do magic, i would have been so rich that i won't feel guilty shopping like crazy, let alone worry for the rainy days.
if i can do magic, there is no end to my youthfulness in looks and in thinking. i would always be forgiven for my mistakes because being young is often stupidity conveniently interpreted as innocence.
if i can do magic, there would not have been goodbyes from mom and dad.. no loneliness, no tears.

that’s if can do magic..

but as it is, only GOD can do magic.

and so i grew up knowing pain and sorrow in some pitiful moments; in the process, i grew tough and ready to face challenges.
only GOD can do magic so i did not become a lawyer as my parents had wanted. as a result, i continue to have interest in learning and developing and growing in a more meaningful way.
only GOD can do magic so i have set foot only on a part of the world yet, which stops me from losing interest in its wonders. i remain amazed with stories of countries that my naked eyes can only hope to see for real.
only GOD can do magic so i got just one kid that's exactly what my limited ability can handle. it makes me focus well on my career as a mother; on the side, affords me time to relax myself.
only GOD can do magic so i’m far from being rich, which taught me to appreciate simple things, and conscientiously reminds me to save for the rainy days.
only GOD can do magic so each passing day takes away part of my youthfulness; in exchange, i earn wisdom and maturity.
only GOD can do magic so mom and dad have gone to the life after, where they finally see the peace we all wish this world isn't short of.
only GOD can do magic so i’m one blessed creature.

i am glad that only GOD can do magic..
this thanksgiving, it’s a good realization for me.

did i say it's good to do magic?

on second thought, i guess i’ll just borrow my daughter’s book for the tricks that complement me more.
a s l i f e g o e s o n..