the stuff i'm made of

every time i get visitors on this site, my eyes grow big in disbelief how people (strangers most of them) care to read my mind, and how i simply don’t care to think aloud.. makes me wonder if my guests have any idea who/how i am beyond what my revealed ponderings say about me..
like, do they know ..
1. my first “suitor” pursued me starting in my kindergarten days 🥰
(i heard he’s now a pilot.. we would have been a handsome team?)
2. i started driving at age 15; stick shift / manual 🙄
3. not a car, but a jeep.
4. i have watched "little mermaid" more than 20x to date
5. and i don't mind watching it another 20x.
6. my fantasy is to play "ariel"; and joell is prince erik (no chance for this at all coz joell, too, wants to play ariel!? 😩)
7. my first love was a famous basketeer, a living legend in manila they call him.
8. naturally, my first heartbreak is that heartless living legend.
9. he refused to see me more than just a little girl in the “fan” mode 😭
10. i broke my right arm in college
11. no one knows the whole truth why it happened
12. it's such a shame, i swear not to tell anyone about it.. ever!
13. that accident made me a “bionic woman” of some sort – i have a metal in the arm that sounds off in some airport devices (that sucks, really!)
14. i dream for 2 careers in life :
15. one is to be a flight attendant
16. that has seen the light, alright
17. the other is to be a newscaster
18. and i continue to wish i’ll be one someday.
19. i don’t care if it’s only on gossip news (nye..),
20 or if it’s just for kyle’s viewing pleasure;
21. either that or i’ll buy my own network 🤗
22. it seems that i have a sixth sense
23. but i refuse to look into it.
24. i love to sing
25. but can’t sing well 🤭
26. i love to cook
27. but can’t cook well 😟
28. i’m not a coffee drinker
29. so why do i have insomnia??!!
30. i don’t like soda;
31. i think it’s fattening
32. but i’m a chocolate addict
33. so i think that’s healthy!??
34. i can’t stand cigarette smoke
35. and i’m allergic to alcohol
36. and i never tried drugs
37. and.. i know!! i know!! my life is boring (hay...)
38. i’m a catholic
39. i seek st jude's assistance praying to my God40. and i believe in angels.
41. my eyes are so vulnerable42. i’m blinded when under the sun
43. so it doesn't help that i’m afraid of the dark.
44. i have photophobia
45. but i’m hoping to do photography 🧐
46. i barely produce tears
47. and i hardly perspire.
48. my condition is called anhidrosis 😔
49. i am addicted to wood furniture
50. i am happy to smell the forest
51. i like going to the beach
52. but i'm not at ease swimming in open water
53.  green is my favorite color
54. but i prefer to wear yellow.
55. i can’t grow my nails long
56.  they always break in two weeks
57.  i’m afraid of cats
58.  and i can’t even look at snakes
59. i can eat seafoods only all my life
60. i'm buying a house in italy
61. .. if i can figure out where to get money?!  😥
62. i’m more comfortable wearing boots than rubber shoes.
63. i’ll accept a date with george clooney
64. or gerard butler
65. i’m serious!! who says i'm not?!!
66. also liam neeson
67. i used to have long hair
68. i pay a fortune to maintain my nails
69. star apple is my fruit for life.

70. i always want egg on my meals.

71. there was a time i ballooned to 170 lbs 😱
72. but i deflated back to 110 lbs in 3 months (beat that!)
73. “the rock” is my all-time favorite movie
74. while “mr bean” irritates me terribly!
75. i speak a little spanish, a little arabic, a little english, and a whole lot of pilipino
76. my longest phone chat lasted for 6 hrs
77. i can’t remember what was it about.
78. although i find it difficult to sleep on roadtrips,
79. i’ll survive a long journey sans talking
80. i have super dry skin
81. so lotion is my bestfriend.
82. the longest cry i had lasted for 40 months
83. yap, tears flooded my world once
84. so i have my own version of “noah’s ark” (only, mine was longer and pathetic)
85. now that story makes me feel stupid 😣
86. no way i’ll share the details to those who don’t know about it.
87. i’m a mixed-handed person
88. i don’t feel pretty when i “tuck-in” my shirt
89. i told scott why (and i’ll kill scott if he tells you why)
90. i’m not a morning person
91. i’m more lucid between noon and midnight.
92. being a "leo" often brings me trouble.
93. zarah and mench are like the extra sisters i never had.
94. i would have wanted to be named mikaela
95. i settled with passing it to my daughter
96. i’m my dad’s favorite. don’t believe my sister saying i’m not! 😂
97. i don’t eat spicy
98. the nicest person i know is rowena

99. the luckiest person i know is me
100. coz rowena is stuck with me 👍
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whoa.. for my faceless readers to see this list, that’s getting a mindful of the stuff i’m made of!
do they know????

i really wonder..
as life goes on..